L is for Love.
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One year, I was probably about eleven, or twelve (maybe?), my best friend at the time Valeria, helped me build up enough courage to write this boy, lets call him Jake, a letter which I actually still have hidden away because of how obsessed I was over him, where I told him how much I loved him. It went something like this:
Hi Jake, there is something I've wanted to tell you for a bit now
but I'm scared to let you know because you are a great
friend and I don't want to lose you. I love you.
I'm only telling you this to get it off my chest because I do,
I really love you but its okay if you don't feel the same way,
I understand it. Please don't let this change anything
because you're a great friend and I wouldn't change you for the world.
I know, awkward!
Once I spent a whole class hour writing this and re-writing it in the perfect font and spelling, I remember I gave it to Valeria to give to Jake between classes because I was too embarrassed to.
An hour later as I was walking into my last class of the day, which I remember perfectly was maths in the BD room, Jake walked up to me and gave me a letter back which was folded and he had drawn Jake & Ellie in a love heart on the front of it. Inside it, he had written something along the lines of:
Hi Ellie, don't worry because you won't lose me as a friend,
I will always be your friend no matter what.
Its okay if you love me but I'm sorry I don't love you back because I
love Rachel. BTW, Rachel has just split up with Richard so if you'd like
to show her this letter to make her jealous it'd be great.
See ya!
Hello Ellie, I'm Maria, Jake's friend.
Don't take any notice of what he says, Rachel is stupid and
Jake is worth so much better. I don't know who you
are so if you see me in the corridor please say hello so I can get to know you.
Good luck! Jake&Ellie.
Now, lets be honest, that letter is completely mortifying, what a horrible thing to say to me, but I took it like a pat on the back and didn't even care, I was over the moon that I'd got a response and I even "went out with him" days after this, although that didn't even last a week I don't think.
I have loads of old "love" stories and these are the best ones, these days everything is taken way too serious (lol).
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