It is 00:36 AM and I have absolutely no tiredness inside me so I've decided to write a blog post (as you do). This could grow to be either another of my mistakes or something I live to be proud of, which I highly doubt.
In general, I class myself as an easy going person and I usually just let things slide but at night time is when my stress head turns on and I start stressing about things that are out of my control such as death or the past, things I could've dealed with differently and even specific conversations or situations from years ago and I can never find a way to stop thinking about them.

When I was driving I came to the realization (and I hope you can take it... ok stop) this year is so different to any others. I feel so content within myself and happy with who I am, happy with the person I am becoming and I have started not giving a toot about anybody else and it has done me the world of good.
Obviously the "not giving a toot" can be taken two very different ways, I personally don't care what people think anymore, I do what I want to do because I want to do it and that is a good enough reason, I don't have to explain myself to nobody (in certain boundaries of course).
But on the other hand "not giving a toot" can also lead to being a stuck up self centered cow who thinks the world only revolves around them and that is not who I am or want to be, I've already dealed way too many of those and it is not a pretty sight.

In all honestly I don't know where I am going with this post or the point I am trying to give across but I just want you to know, whatever you are going through, whatever insecurities you have, I just want you to know that everything gets better. It will get better. I know it is really cliche and really hard to see, but I've been there, done that and honestly, when I look back on it now I am glad I went through it. I had to hit rock bottom in order to be a stronger person (and I mean the absolute rock bottom), everything I have gone through has made me the person I am today and has taught so many lessons.

Two of the biggest lessons that have come out of this is 1. You don't find your worth in a man and 2. Just let let things go.

I spent so long wasting time with boys in order to make myself feel good or feel worthy or just feel something when in reality you need to spend time with yourself and love yourself in order to really feel those things. "You don't find your worth in a man, you find worth within yourself and then a man worthy of you." Start loving yourself before you try loving anyone else and trust me, so many great things will come from it.

Simply let things go with the wind. Do not hold on to things, you will only dwell on things and they will bring you down.
Easy to say as one of the most easygoing people, I know, but I can assure it will do you the world of good. When letting go, I don't only mean people's opinions or comments or the fact that someone you like hasn't followed you back on Instagram. I mean negative things you are chasing, things you are so used to that you just go with them, no matter how low they make you feel or how little you deserve them to carry on, just let go. Do you know that childhood friendship that you are fighting to keep alive just for the memories yet you have nothing in common? Let it go. The guy who's playing with your emotions despite the clear fact he isn't interested? Let him go. Be the bigger person and for yourself this time. I did it and all I can say is "I wish I had done it sooner".

Everyday is a new day so make this one count, make it one to remember and make it better than the previous, who knows when will be the last.

Hi there chummies! How ya doin'?!
Today I thought to talk to you about Inspiration either in people, or simply in just an achievment.
So firstly, person wise, my biggest inspiration is probably like my mum or Zoella (not joking), obviously I go through fazes of people I look up to and unique things that I admire from certain people.
Then, in more of an inspiration for a short/long term achievment I look at photos of Mini's for an example. This month, I became eighteen, in Spain this means I can now have a car (first I need to pass my driving test, obviously) and I have forever loved Mini's so this winter I am going to push and inspire myself to pass my test and I am trying to earn money and save up so I can finally buy myself a second hand car, although these last two are very hard due to all the great clothes and makeup out there...

There are so many Mini's out there and they range so far out in colors and motors, if you have a Mini, do you like it? What make is it and do you recomend me it? Thanks again for reading, until next time byeeeeeeeee!!! Xxx

As some of you may know, if you read one of my first 2015 posts, sometime this year we are hoping to move house, and as I am really, REALLY excited, I have already been looking up DIY ideas, and ways to re-boost our old furniture, or to just simply change them completely without spending hundreds of euros. 

These are a couple of theme ideas I love for my bedroom and the kitchen, and I am still looking for some inspirational ideas for the other rooms, maybe you could link some photos below that you like the theme to? Do you know of any good blogs that may help me out for DIY ideas? xx

     Following your heart is all about the actions you are taking and the person you are being, and doing what you love means you listen to your intuition, you take actions according to what you love, following you passions and you express your unique gifts and talents to the world with no fear.
     Our society today is driven by our minds, our fears and our ego. We do not place as much value and emphasis on passion, love and spiritual purpose. Instead, it is all about the external success, money, security, stability and reputation, and as a result many of us do not feel it is important to tune in to our hearts and hear what it wants. We are too busy trying to get ahead and make something of ourselves in this world.
     This is why when you attempt to start following your heart, your head will be really quick to doubt your actions. This fearful mind, also called your ego, will bring up all the reasons why you cannot do what you desire. It will trigger memories and feelings from the past that add such power to the case you decide that it is better to just stay where you are.

     Sometimes, we must look at our life honestly and truly evaluate what parts of it we love and which we don't.
     Often, your heart's desire may mean that you have to go against what your family wants for you, or what your friends expect of you. It may mean facing your fears and doing something you love, yet are petrified of at the same time. It may mean that you have to do something different than what others want you to do. It may mean learning to listen to a deep inner voice, rather than the loud forceful voice of the outer world.
     The decision to follow your heart is a journey. If you have been living a life that is not heart driven, the decision to follow your heart will most likely turn your world upside down. It may be a scary road, but that is what life is all about.
     People have these amazing, beautiful dreams and desires, but they ignore them to such a point they tell themselves they can never have them. For most people, it is much easier to live in denial than to actually face what it is they really want. They would rather pretend they are happy with what they have and justify to themselves that their inner dreams are not really that important anyway.
     Don't you think it is time you were honest with yourself? Time to find out what you really want from life and stop pretending? xx

     No, I'm not talking in terms of size or height, or anything physical. I'm talking about outgrowing personally, mentally or even emotionally.
     Every type of relationship is a journey not a destination and as we change and grow as a person due to experiences or situations that life brings to us, sometimes, instead of bringing people closer, we push them away.
     The thing is, people change.
     Out growing someone doesn't mean you are above them or better than them, it just means that you are in different stages of life. 
     I'll be the first to admit I've felt compromised into a relationship, either because of the past or because of the memories I've felt forced to forgive someone.
     It is 100% OK for this to happen. However, for some the idea that your friendship with someone is not what it once was can be a sad prospect, maybe they saw you through a rough time and you appreciate it, but are they really worth it?
     Let me just say, a few years ago, I had a lot of 'best friends', or even 'close friends', or 'friends I met through other friends' and so on. It made me feel good to have so many friends, because I could always go out, or meet up with someone. Eventually, this all began to change. Those who I concidered my close friends began to distance, everyone went there separate ways, they started changing, there was now the drunk friend, the angry friend, the friend that only texted me when they needed something, the hating friend.. I think you get the idea. I went through a period of self-reflection and asked myself if it was perhaps me.
     Well, let me just say I was wrong. There was nothing wrong with me, I was growing up. Everyone gets to a point in life where they face decisions, and for some reason friendships are the most difficult. But for me, they weren't true friendships in the true concept of the word. Little by little I began cutting ties to people who no longer made sence in my life.
     This year my priorities began to shift and I couldn't and wouldn't  let myself deal with bullshit no longer. In my opinion, the best thing of being self-aware, is you begin to see through peoples bullshit faster than ever. Unfortunately, most people aren't self-aware and refuse to accept their issues. But I, have made the conscious effort to keep the people that are good for me, close, and those who aren't, as far away as possible. I don't believe for a second that because I was once friends with someone they should still feel entitled to my friendship now. 
     What about you, have you been through anything like this? xx