Last year was probably both my best and worst school year. It was the year when I best got along with the boys, but worst got along with the girls in my year. I just couldn't stand them and we just couldn't get along.
          When we did P.E at school we would be in an outdoor area and we would have to leave all our school bags on the seating area (baring in mind there were 35 children in my class, there were lots of school bags everywhere).
          So one day we were doing P.E and I knew I had put my phone in the front pocket of my schoolbag as I always did during this class, but, when we finished the class and all went for our bags my phone wasn't in my bag and I knew what boys out of my class had been standing around the area where my bag was and I knew how they loved to prank and I was quite annoyed so I hysterically ran up to almost every boy in my class swearing and shouting and I ended up having all the boys in my class help me look for my phone (which I was grateful for) and I remember one of them telling me to look in my schoolbag, to take everything out and double check, so I did, and the worst thing is that it wasn't my schoolbag. It had someone else's things in it. There was a girl in my class with the exact same schoolbag as me so it had to be hers, I hunted her down and I gave her it back and obviously she had mine with my phone and everything.
          I felt so bad and so embarrassed that I'd blamed everyone, but thankfully the boys didn't take it to heart so everything was fine.
          Have you done anything like this? Is you embarrassing moment worse than this one?

     

     Recently I feel like I'm scared about a lot of things. I'm worried and I'm nervous and I'm scared about committing to things. I feel like I spend half my time worrying and being scared, when really I should be putting that time into doing the thing I'm scared of.
I am really scared that I am going to fail doing whatever I'm doing now, whatever I'm doing in life. Anything I choose to do, I always think I am going to fail at it and I'm going to end up doing something I don't want to do.
          Another thing that scares me is the fact that I don't know what I want to do. I know what I like, but I don't know what I want and feel capable of sticking to.
          The third thing is that all my friends are really successful, and I don't feel like I'm successful, and I know that takes time and work and effort, but even if I did all that, I don't think like I could reach success. I am surrounded by people who know what they want, are either doing what they want or achieving it and I put a massive amount of pressure on myself which I guess is both a good thing and a bad thing. A good thing because it helps me push myself and do things I'm passionate about, but a negative because now I'm scaring myself.
          And the fourth thing, I don't only feel like I don't know what to do career wise, sometimes I just don't know what I'm doing with my time, my life, or anything.
          So I guess the thing to take from this, is that you can be scared of a lot of things, you can be scared about your work, your friends, what you are going to do with your life, but ultimately, that's what I guess makes life entertaining, because you don't know whats going to happen next and sometimes you have to take a gamble. So being scared shouldn't be a thing you be ashamed of scared of to some degree.
          What are you scared of? Are you scared of something more simple such as snakes or spiders? So am I. I am also afraid of the doctors and dentists. I always remember my mum telling me that when I was little (about 4 years old) they would have to wait for me to fall asleep in my pram before cutting my hair at the hairdressers because of how stressed out and anxious I would get, so is that maybe one of your fears?

          Hey peeps! So today's blog choice of not so much choice is Time Management. If you've hung around here for the past couple of months you will be familiar to the fact that every Saturday I post about a topic from the 52- Week Blog Challenge, and so far not so good.
          Said that, today is another not so good one. So today I am going to plan out how I WOULD LIKE my summer time management to be (although it probably won't work) simply because ever since I finished school I have been quite lazy.

          First of all, I would like to be Daily Vlogging, and yes you herd it here first. Here is the link to my vlogging channel just in case you aren't already subscribed and you would like to head on over and have a cheeky nosey! *winks awkwardly*
          On that note, I am terrible at editing daily vlogs on time, so I would set my alarm every morning for 7:30AM and the first thing I would do would be edit followed by having my breakfast and heading out to walk the pups.
          Once I got back, the aim of the game would be either workout and head to the pool if it is that kind of chilled day, and if not, get ready for the day and they head out (this would hopefully be around 9AM).
          That's my only "plans" for Time Management. All I would want to do would be this, and then just relax and to whatever needed to be done during the rest of the day, and then obviously early-ish night.
          Have you got a Time Management? If so, how do you manage it? I am hoping to start this before the summer just so I have time to get into it and get used to it, but we shall see how it goes, wish me luck!

         Here is a list of the products I used:


         Onto my hair; this is just my natural blow dried hair, I am lucky enough not to have to do much to make it look okay.

         YouTube has played a major part in my life since probably mid-2014. I remember somehow rocking up on Rebecca Ellie's channel and she became one of my first ever favorite Youtubers along side Bianca, at the time they both had probably around 4k subscribers and I remember I used to stalk them on a daily basis.
         In one of Rebecca's videos I remember her mentioning Zoella as one of her favorite YouTubers so I decided to google her and started off watching one of her Primark Hauls and then somehow I ended up on her vlog channel and then Playlist live with the British Gang, Troye, Tyler, Joey Graceffa, Miranda Sings and so one until I just got addicted. All I did back then was either school or swimming pool, YouTube, eat, YouTube, eat, sleep, YouTube and so on.
         I remember being a time when I was obsessed with Jack and Finn and I would watch their videos on repeat. Fun fact: I've watched their Rickshaw Run videos about three times and I'm not even guilty.
         During the end of 2014 I decided to upload my first ever video to YouTube being the Furry Friend Tag with Laila (which is still currently on my channel), I did actually film a haul and some kind of Halloween video before then but I never built up the courage to upload either of those. After uploading my first ever video with Laila I remember being getting really nice comments from my Intenet Friends and an amazing feedback and I never really worried about my "school friends" or "real life people" as my mum likes to call them and what they would say if they saw it. (Two years later and my brother is the only person who has seen / found my videos and I truly think it is only because he lives with me.)
         Since then I never really uploaded until October 2015 and I remember I pre-filmed about 7 videos for the whole week I was away in Portugal and I loved it, ever since I haven't given up although I do lack inspiration sometimes and struggle producing content, but every time I look and see that over 1000 let alone 100 people have seen potential and subscribed to my channel I feel so happy and so proud of myself in my own little way.
         I know I don't say it enough but I am so thankful to every single one of you who make me have a smile on my face everyday and support me through thick and thin. Thanks to YouTube I have met some amazing people who will hopefully forever be in my life, and as cringy as it may sound, thanks to YouTube I am now happy again. In 2014 I was going through a really rough time and knowing I could just switch off life and fall back on YouTube to make me laugh and smile really helped me out. Believe it or not, YouTube is an amazing platform and it has helped so many people and I just hope it continues this way for a long long time.
         To end of, here is a list of my most watched YouTubers at the moment (embrace yourself, there are quite a few, also, I have linked their main channels, but I'm loving the vlogs more):

• Zoe Sugg.
• Joe Sugg.
• Alfie Deyes. 
• Marcus Butler.
• Caspar Lee.
• The Saccone Jolys. 
• The Michalacks.
• OKBaby. 
• Hobbie Stuart.
• Shani Grimmond.
• Adam Waithe.
• Emily Canham.
• Jake Boys. 
• Sam King.
• Mark Ferris. 
• Hannah Renee. 
• Gabriella Lindley. 
• Jack Maynard. 
• Daily Bumps.
• Saffron Barker.
• Jake Mitchell.
• Acacia & Jairus.

          Today's topic is Childhood memories which is pretty ironic as I have just been sat playing around with my mums old camcorder watching old video footage of us all in the snow. Sadly I can't share these videos with you today, but that said, I am hoping to get them developed so I can share them to you on my YouTube channel sometime this year.
          When looking back at myself as a child all I can think of is Spain and being brought up here, I can remember my first day of school when Don Jose (my teacher) sat me on a chair in front of the whole class and introduced me to them. I also remember how much I hated school and how I would always refused to eat at the school canteen and my brother would have to sit next to me and persuade me.
          Me and my brother always had a really strong bond throughout our childhood, I used to spend every day with him and his friends getting into bother and mischief and I think that the only thing that distanced us was when he got his first girlfriend and he didn't no longer want his little sister following him around (obviously lol). That said, we still live under the same roof and we still love each other to bits, I think.

          This photo here, I believe, is the first ever photo of me and my brother as you can quite possibly tell as I look like *thinks for about 10 minutes* ... like a cute little newborn baby. Where as my brother, he looks like he is scared for his life, and most of all for his toys but never the less, he looks freaking adorable.



          I don't even know what to say... how cute are we though? I am totally loving my little 'bish whet?' pose and lets not forget about the little Wallace and Gromit body wash.




          Here are some photos of us on holiday in Spain, before we actually came to live in Spain.



          This is the photo my mum used to make one of my Birthday cards, for my sixteenth maybe, I'm not sure, but I'm full on paaaaaaaarty!


          Clearly this photo describes that toddler / munchkin / devil child phase of my life but how cute is my outfit?

BEWARE OF THE CUTENESS OVERLOAD!! 





          These four photos just describe our childhood and relationship to a T, except I would probably get tired of him and start crying, but at least we are cute.





           And here I am through my 'tomboy' stage where all I used to do was play with my brother, his friends and my dogs.



          My grandparents were also a massive part of my childhood and when I think of the word, or of memories, I remember my grandad, he is always a happy memory and a funny one and I will always miss him and love him.


Quickly before I go, I want to also introduce you to Spike, who along with Paddy (the black dog in the photos who we brought from England) was a massive part of my childhood and sadly passed away in 2014. Spike was the most loving, and caring dog ever, I couldn't of asked for a better pet and we all miss him ever so much.


          But okay, lets not get soppy. To end it off, just look at how adorably cheeky we look here, so freaking cute! I dare you to upload one of your childhood photos and tag me!

       

          Good evening my beautiful bunch! So today I am here with week 3 of the 52- Week Blog Challenge and today I'm going to list off 10 of my favorite things.

1.- Beach Walks.

3.- Travelling.


 4.- Granada.


5.- My pets.


6.- Memories.


7.- JLS.


8.- Family.

10.- Babies.

          Every single time I talk about 'hair care' I somehow fit Nelly products in to the subject and I don't know how I have grown to love them so much. I remember the first time I purchased the product after having my hair chopped off at the beginning of the year (this sounds like a romantic comedy or something), but it did actually happen. Once I got my hair cut I went out on the hunt for hair products that would work great with my hair and create the finish look I wanted, and Nelly was the one.


          I think the straightening shampoo and hair mask will forever be my two faves although these are no longer available in most shops (sadly). These left my hair feeling nourished and rich in shine and still made my hair look healthy and straight which is one thing that most straightening shampoos don't actually do.



          To be completely honest I am not as happy with Nelly's new collection as I was with the previous. Maybe its just the retailers I know and buy from don't have the complete collection, I don't know as I haven't yet researched as much as I should.




          With that said, I do still have a couple of favorites out of their new collection, these being the normal  shampoo, the ultra repair shampoo and the hydra shine hair mask that contains apple extracts (it smells amazing!!).


          Now that I have bored you 'Nellyless' I do have one other product I have been loving and this is the volumising dry hair shampoo from Batiste. I love how this product seams to last me forever although I use it every day regardless, and obviously it leaves my hair non greasy and volumised as you would expect from a volumising dry hair shampoo.

          And they are my top hair care favorites. I know I hardly mentioned any for a year worth of favorites, but these are the absolute favorites as I have used them non stop and they are my number one recommendations!

When it comes to people not treating you right, it doesn't matter how long you have been friends for or how much you love them. How people treat you shows if they should be in your life or not. If this friend is not even there for you, then she (or he) isn't even a friend, because that's not what friends are.
Pushing people out of your life may seem hard at the beginning, but I promise it is worth it. If these "friends" are only radiating negative energy to you, you need to get that away from you so that you can be positive and have positive energy, and if that means cutting them completely out of your life, so be it.
I promise, its nothing to get upset over friends are going to come and go and some are going to hurt more than others.

I've been meaning to this post ever since I slipper the palette into my Primor bag. As you have probably notices, I am more of a neutrals girl, I'd rather war a brown or a gold any day rather than a blue or a purple just because they make me look like an even bigger weirdo with my blue eyes.
When the day I was going to buy this palette came (I'd been wanting it for a couple of weeks) I was umming and aring a LOT about which palette to get as they all looked equaly as great, but finally I decided over the 'What Are You Waiting For?' palette.
It is a VERY inexpensive palette but you would've never guessed, its packaging is very high quality (it looks like a chocolate bar if I may say so myself) and it would easily be perfect to take traveling with you as it isn't at all chunky or heavy.

Now moving to the inside of the palette, it is a nudish themed palette, based on gold, brown and a bit of pinkish shades. There are twelve shimmered colors, and six matte ones all very highly pigmented and long lasting. My three favorite and most used shimmers are:
All in all I think this palette is a great buy and I will definitely be getting another one out of the collection.