I ended 2018 as I mean to go on...
During 2018 instead of waiting until the 1st of January to start my so called "resolutions", mid December I decided Why not now? Instead of waiting twelve more days, twenty or even two to start living my best life (so cliché, I know, sorry, yep...) Why not now?
I want to be the best version of myself for myself, I want to love what I do and do what I love, I want to spend time with the people I love and I want to squeeze every last drop out of life. I´ve spent this past year or even two dwelling on decisions I have made, places I´ve missed out on going to, what if this and what if that, when the real problem is NOW. Live now cause you have no clue what will happen tomorrow.

And for the umpteenth time, I can again say I am back. I have taken another long time away from my social medias. I´ve been working, exploring and loving and I have yet again, pushed my social life to the back of my priorities which, in the real world, is actually not a bad thing (lets be honest).
My blog, my YouTube and my photography took over most of my time and life back in 2015 - 2016 and don´t get me wrong, I loved doing it but it just wasn´t good for my mental health so I decided to make that my priority instead.
In the past year, I have tried many times to come back but I never actually do it, I maybe upload one post or film one video but that's it. This time though, I'm hoping to not do that, I'm hoping I can actually stick to it and enjoy it as much as I used to.
Today I´ve started by uploading a video to my YouTube channel, which you can watch here. It is a questions and answers video where I talk about where I´ve been, what I've been up to, confidence, love and lots more! So please give it a watch and show it some love as it would mean a lot to me and if there are any videos you'd like to see, or any posts you'd like me to write about please let me know via Instagram or any other of my social medias.

          Hey peeps! So today's blog choice of not so much choice is Time Management. If you've hung around here for the past couple of months you will be familiar to the fact that every Saturday I post about a topic from the 52- Week Blog Challenge, and so far not so good.
          Said that, today is another not so good one. So today I am going to plan out how I WOULD LIKE my summer time management to be (although it probably won't work) simply because ever since I finished school I have been quite lazy.

          First of all, I would like to be Daily Vlogging, and yes you herd it here first. Here is the link to my vlogging channel just in case you aren't already subscribed and you would like to head on over and have a cheeky nosey! *winks awkwardly*
          On that note, I am terrible at editing daily vlogs on time, so I would set my alarm every morning for 7:30AM and the first thing I would do would be edit followed by having my breakfast and heading out to walk the pups.
          Once I got back, the aim of the game would be either workout and head to the pool if it is that kind of chilled day, and if not, get ready for the day and they head out (this would hopefully be around 9AM).
          That's my only "plans" for Time Management. All I would want to do would be this, and then just relax and to whatever needed to be done during the rest of the day, and then obviously early-ish night.
          Have you got a Time Management? If so, how do you manage it? I am hoping to start this before the summer just so I have time to get into it and get used to it, but we shall see how it goes, wish me luck!

           The number one thing I can advice you about the most, is when you start your channel, you have to pick a topic. For me, my "topic" was fashion and beauty. You don't only have to create videos about said topic, you can obviously through in other videos here and there, that aren't on the topic. You can make things easier to find by creating playlists, so that people can go through and watch the type of videos they are into. There are so many categories of videos on YouTube and that is one of my favorite things about it, there are videos for everyone.

           Number two is that you should start an Instagram and Twitter account so you can connect to your subscribers and also to find subscribers, notify subscribers and so on.

           Number three is to try and find YouTube friends. This is very hard, as a lot of other YouTubers can
try and use you. I would recommend finding someone with a similar subscribing count as your own and recommend reaching out to them to either do a collab, to talk, anything like that. Join YouTuber groups and so on.

           Number four, just has to be DON'T BE AFRAID. Don't be afraid of what people will think, don't be afraid of what people will say, don't be afraid of putting yourself out there for hate comments, don't be afraid of what your family, your boyfriend, your dog, or what anyone is going to think. Don't be afraid, just do it. If this is something that you truly want to do, go for it. If you start doing it and you don't like it, or you don't enjoy it, you don't have to continue, it's not a job that you signed a lifetime contract to. If you don't like it you can stop, but don't be afraid to start.

           Number five. Do your research on editing and what makes a YouTube channel that will work. Just as you are doing and are reading this, do lots more, watch videos, read other blogs, look at thumbnails, get inspired. You need custom thumbnails, if you haven't a custom thumbnail you need to get one, you need eye catching titles, not click-bate, just good titles.

           Those are my five top points on how to start a YouTube channel. Try, it and give it time, you'll love it and you'll get the hang of it. Anything specific such as how to upload a video, make a custom thumbnail, and so on you can find by searching on Google, but this is how to mentally start a YouTube channel, because I know it can be really nerve racking.

         Here is a list of the products I used:


         Onto my hair; this is just my natural blow dried hair, I am lucky enough not to have to do much to make it look okay.

          For this super-easy recipe you are only going to need the following six ingredients and a microwave proof mug!

• 3 tablespoons of milk
• 2 tablespoons of whisked egg
• 2 tablespoons of sugar
• 2 tablespoons of flour
• 3 tablespoons of oil
• 3 tablespoons of cocoa powder 

          Okay, so now you have put all those ingredients in a mug, whisk away until you achieve a nice runny consistency!


          Then pop it in the microwave for 2-3 minutes depending on how well 'baked' you want your cake.

          And voila! There you have you mug in a cake! If you do try this recipe be sure to tag me on Instagram or tweet me on Twitter, thank for everything my friends! *all the biggest hugs and squeezes*

          Every single time I talk about 'hair care' I somehow fit Nelly products in to the subject and I don't know how I have grown to love them so much. I remember the first time I purchased the product after having my hair chopped off at the beginning of the year (this sounds like a romantic comedy or something), but it did actually happen. Once I got my hair cut I went out on the hunt for hair products that would work great with my hair and create the finish look I wanted, and Nelly was the one.


          I think the straightening shampoo and hair mask will forever be my two faves although these are no longer available in most shops (sadly). These left my hair feeling nourished and rich in shine and still made my hair look healthy and straight which is one thing that most straightening shampoos don't actually do.



          To be completely honest I am not as happy with Nelly's new collection as I was with the previous. Maybe its just the retailers I know and buy from don't have the complete collection, I don't know as I haven't yet researched as much as I should.




          With that said, I do still have a couple of favorites out of their new collection, these being the normal  shampoo, the ultra repair shampoo and the hydra shine hair mask that contains apple extracts (it smells amazing!!).


          Now that I have bored you 'Nellyless' I do have one other product I have been loving and this is the volumising dry hair shampoo from Batiste. I love how this product seams to last me forever although I use it every day regardless, and obviously it leaves my hair non greasy and volumised as you would expect from a volumising dry hair shampoo.

          And they are my top hair care favorites. I know I hardly mentioned any for a year worth of favorites, but these are the absolute favorites as I have used them non stop and they are my number one recommendations!

I've been meaning to this post ever since I slipper the palette into my Primor bag. As you have probably notices, I am more of a neutrals girl, I'd rather war a brown or a gold any day rather than a blue or a purple just because they make me look like an even bigger weirdo with my blue eyes.
When the day I was going to buy this palette came (I'd been wanting it for a couple of weeks) I was umming and aring a LOT about which palette to get as they all looked equaly as great, but finally I decided over the 'What Are You Waiting For?' palette.
It is a VERY inexpensive palette but you would've never guessed, its packaging is very high quality (it looks like a chocolate bar if I may say so myself) and it would easily be perfect to take traveling with you as it isn't at all chunky or heavy.

Now moving to the inside of the palette, it is a nudish themed palette, based on gold, brown and a bit of pinkish shades. There are twelve shimmered colors, and six matte ones all very highly pigmented and long lasting. My three favorite and most used shimmers are:
All in all I think this palette is a great buy and I will definitely be getting another one out of the collection.

No, that you see isn't an otter, it isn't a beaver either, it is a dog named Jack.
We've had Jack since we rescued him at the end of October 2014 and he is the most loving and happy dog ever (or that's how it seems), he loves cuddles, kisses, playing ball, eating, going in cars, barking at other dogs, barking at my neighbour David, even if you are building he is sat next to you supervising and being a boss, but there is nothing he loves more than swimming.


The first time he went in the water, he wasn't very keen and he was very scared, but once we got him out he just wanted to come back in, so he did. He also didn't want us to hold him, so we didn't, we supervised him and let him swim alone in the shallow end (don't worry, his feet can touch the floor). Then he realized he could lay on the lilo's and chill, so he did. And after swimming and swimming and playing and chilling, he is just a pool babe, he treats it as if only me and my mum can go in with him, anyone else is banned, and he loves playing chase with us in the pool but we never let him stay in for more than 15 minutes at a time and he always has a "tantrum" and tries to jump back in.
What funny things does your pet do? I'd love to know! Xx

Have you checked out the video I uploaded to my channel yesterday? If not here's the link!

          This is a notebook filled with ramblings and scribblings from last year.


          This is a handmade bracelet given to me a year ago.


          And this is a picture I took whilst I was on holiday a couple of weeks ago.
          All of these things have one thing in common, and that is that they are all memories. 





          This pare of cute "jelly" shoes.


          This pair of old trousers.


          Even a song by Ed Sheeran can take you back to a time and a place.
          My biggest issue is that I live to much in the past. I look at all these possessions whenever I am down or upset and I think how happy I was, and I forget that in the future there will be more memories to be had, ones that are probably more happy and positive than the previous ones. That being sad, sometimes your memories can haunt you, and sometimes I can be looking through old pictures and things and I'm almost haunted by how things were, and in that case you almost want to just forget and want to not think about it.
          So memories are a tricky thing, you either love them in such way you even want to try and relive them, or you just hate a memory and you want nothing more than to just move on and forget a memory.
          When you think about it, everything is just a memory. A minute goes by, and then an hour and then a day and then that's in the past and that's a memory. Sometimes it is hard to not look back at the past and not feel some kind of sadness, but it is important to remember that everything we have been through defines us in some way, good or bad it has made us the person we are today.
          Don't let the past haunt you, let it guide you and help you in the future. Learn from your mistakes so you don't do them again. And the thing about this blog is that it is just going to be another memory in your head, but I hope it is a good thing and kind of a positive one.
          Anyway, that is just what I've been thinking of today. Leave a comment telling me what you think about memories and how you think you should move on from the past, and as usual if you like the blog please go ahead and share it, and I will hopefully see you guys soon. Bye bye Xx

          Hi guys! How is everything?
          Today, I wanted to sit here and talk to you about something that has been on my mind a lot lately, and that is the idea of living in the now.
          So I guess a lot of you like me, often worry about the future and how everything will plan out and after reading this book called The Power of Now and after really thinking about it, I guess its just a rethink of how I live everyday life. So the moment I am living in now and the moment your living in now, the past and the future and really things. The past is a previous present and the future is an out-coming present. All we really have is the moment we are living in right now and I guess its just important to capsulize on that. And I guess I am talking about YOLO and the fact that you do only live once, but it has just come more apparent to me, that the clock is ticking, life is counting down and it is important to grab every moment as it comes. Over the past couple of weeks I've heard about a lot of people just dying unexpectedly and just a huge amount of thing happening in the world and that just made me think.
          There's always a divider of whether you should follow your heart, or follow your brain, and I suppose I shouldn't be encouraging this, but if something makes sense to you, but doesn't make sense to anyone else, I think you should just go and do it. I mean, if you want to go on a murder spree, don't do that because that's crazy but follow your heart, live in the moment and capsulize on whats going on now because eventually all of this is going to be in the past. Think of things that will be important in the future but don't become obsessed with them, just be young and reckless, make irrational and stupid decisions and just do what feels right now because before you know it the future will be here and the past will be in the past and you'll just regret it if you don't make the most of the time you've got now.
          Your here on the planet to go and enjoy happiness so please just go and find it, whoever you are and wherever you are, please just go and find yourself. Live the moment and seize the day.
          I hope you enjoyed this post. Leave a comment down below telling me how you live your life, do you live your life? How do you think things?
         Anyway, I hope you guys are having the times of your lives, I hope you are lucking forward to the weather and the summer and I hope you are all going to let loose and enjoy yourselves, and on that note, I will be catching you guys soon. Byeeeeee! Xx

          Ever since I remember I have been obsessed with pictures: Polaroids, film ones, digital ones. I just love something that captures a Time and a Place. I look around my room and it is full of pictures. Moments. These moments that existed, and then disappeared. I suppose I never considered the importance of a picture until I went through a box of my mums old pictures, and inside I found a sea of different memories from when she was younger. Different memories. Different times. Different people. Another world that existed and now it doesn't but you have proof that it happened, it is living and re-living in pictures and it is forever immobilized.
         

          You can see the time you went on a family holiday to Mallorca when you were two.
         
       
          Or the time you got your photos taken back in nursery or school.
       
         
          Or even more recently when you took that late evening stroll round a different city you'd never visited.
         
       
          Or the time in your old house when you we're playing in the garden because it was a nice summery day.
          Its all there and I guess that's why pictures are important. You can appreciate the pictures yourself or more importantly it opens up that little box in your head that takes you back to that time and that place, and the beauty is maybe it was a good time for you, or maybe it was a bad time for you, either way your happiness or sadness can resign in a picture. For example, you might not be able to recognize yourself or other people in a picture but it doesn't matter because it is frozen and it was what it was and I suppose that it is it, it is a fragment of time forever frozen, but frozen while your living and breathing.
          Yes, and I suppose that is why I love pictures.

- What are you naming your guinea pigs? 
To be honest, I still don't even know, so if you have any cute ideas, please please please help me out!

- Are you doing Vlogmas?
Well this is a bit in advance isn't it? But yes, I probably will do vlogmas this time, yes.

- Favorite song at the moment?
Right right now, I am listening to Sugar by Maroon 5 I am obsessed, but I also love the Mcbusted songs (all of them to be precise), and Maroon 5's other song Maps, is also great.

- What was your favorite TV show as a child?
I used to completely love 100% Tracy Beaker (I have watched ever single episode, even the Tracy Beaker Returns), Arthur, Pingu, the Tweenies, the berenstain bears, my parents are aliens, Mary-Kate and Ashley, Memrie the vampire, and I'm not quite sure of any others right now. 

- If you could choose, who would be with you in the CBB house?
I would pick: Zoe Sugg (and any other Youtuber), Peter Andre, Dougie Poynter (or any other McBusted singer), Ellie Goulding, Aston Merrygold, Joe Swash, Alan Carr and Keith Lemon (for the LOL's) and I can't think of anyone else. 

- If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?
I would travel to LA, Florida, Paris, Australia, Germany, Italy, all over England and Ireland, and I can't think of any more countries. 

- Would you rather not have a Starbucks for 6 months or have to baby sit an anoying girl for 6 months?
Deffinetly not have a Starbucks for 6 months because here where I live in Spain you can't get them anyway, so it would not be a difficult task for me anyway.

- In the future where do you see yourself moving to?
I won't say move, but I would love to travel, and maybe spend some time in London or Brighton or just somewhere in England.

- What are your goals for 2015? 
Firstly, I would love to travel more, even if it is only around Spain or around my city area, but it would be a great start, and secondly, to be happy with myself, and also to get fit (or fitter).

-Who are your favorite YouTubers at the moment?
My favorite youtubers at the moment are Zoe Sugg, Alfie Deyes, The Saccone Joly's, the Michalaks, Joe Sugg, Caspar Lee, Oli White, Louise, Louis Cole (aka FunForLouis) and I don't know, basically all the British Youtubers.

- If you were to have any Youtuber as a sister, brother, mum and dad, who would they be?
Well Anna and Jonathan would just have to be my parents, so Eduardo and Emilia would technically be my brother and sister, but apart from them, FunForLouis would be a great brother, and Zoe would have to be my sister. 

- You get stuck in a lift for two days, which two people and two things would you take with you?
I would take Zoe and Alfie, just because I could, and they would make me laugh! And I would take my camera or phone to take selfies, and some water would probably be good.

- If you had to choose from the Kardashian's, who's bum, who's boobs, who's boyfriend, who's hair and who's face would you want?
Okay, this is a good question, I would want Kim's bum and boobs, Kourtney's boyfriend, Khloe's hair and either Kendall or Kim's face.

- What nationality are you?
I'm English, but I have been brought up in Spain since I was six. 

- If you could have any animal as a pet, what would it be? 
This is a hard one because I love nearly every animal, I think I'd have an anteater or a baby gorila, but I'd be scared of it when it was big so that wouldn't be a good idea.

- Marry, kiss and be friends with: Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson and Zayn Malik.
I would marry Zayn (obviously), kiss Harry and be friends with Louis.

- If you could be given any present in the world what would it be?
I would just really like a puppy, or several of them, but  I've already got to many dogs so that isn't going to happen.

- If you could marry anyone in the world who would it be?
This is probably the least expected person, but Peter Andre, because I've always had a masive obsession with him, and he is just such a nice person, and so caring and such a good dad, I LOVE HIMMMMM.

-If you could marry any other Youtuber who would it be? 
It would have to be Jack Harries from JacksGap, just because I can't break up Zalfie or Narcus can I?