Hey peeps! So today's blog choice of not so much choice is Time Management. If you've hung around here for the past couple of months you will be familiar to the fact that every Saturday I post about a topic from the 52- Week Blog Challenge, and so far not so good.
          Said that, today is another not so good one. So today I am going to plan out how I WOULD LIKE my summer time management to be (although it probably won't work) simply because ever since I finished school I have been quite lazy.

          First of all, I would like to be Daily Vlogging, and yes you herd it here first. Here is the link to my vlogging channel just in case you aren't already subscribed and you would like to head on over and have a cheeky nosey! *winks awkwardly*
          On that note, I am terrible at editing daily vlogs on time, so I would set my alarm every morning for 7:30AM and the first thing I would do would be edit followed by having my breakfast and heading out to walk the pups.
          Once I got back, the aim of the game would be either workout and head to the pool if it is that kind of chilled day, and if not, get ready for the day and they head out (this would hopefully be around 9AM).
          That's my only "plans" for Time Management. All I would want to do would be this, and then just relax and to whatever needed to be done during the rest of the day, and then obviously early-ish night.
          Have you got a Time Management? If so, how do you manage it? I am hoping to start this before the summer just so I have time to get into it and get used to it, but we shall see how it goes, wish me luck!

           The number one thing I can advice you about the most, is when you start your channel, you have to pick a topic. For me, my "topic" was fashion and beauty. You don't only have to create videos about said topic, you can obviously through in other videos here and there, that aren't on the topic. You can make things easier to find by creating playlists, so that people can go through and watch the type of videos they are into. There are so many categories of videos on YouTube and that is one of my favorite things about it, there are videos for everyone.

           Number two is that you should start an Instagram and Twitter account so you can connect to your subscribers and also to find subscribers, notify subscribers and so on.

           Number three is to try and find YouTube friends. This is very hard, as a lot of other YouTubers can
try and use you. I would recommend finding someone with a similar subscribing count as your own and recommend reaching out to them to either do a collab, to talk, anything like that. Join YouTuber groups and so on.

           Number four, just has to be DON'T BE AFRAID. Don't be afraid of what people will think, don't be afraid of what people will say, don't be afraid of putting yourself out there for hate comments, don't be afraid of what your family, your boyfriend, your dog, or what anyone is going to think. Don't be afraid, just do it. If this is something that you truly want to do, go for it. If you start doing it and you don't like it, or you don't enjoy it, you don't have to continue, it's not a job that you signed a lifetime contract to. If you don't like it you can stop, but don't be afraid to start.

           Number five. Do your research on editing and what makes a YouTube channel that will work. Just as you are doing and are reading this, do lots more, watch videos, read other blogs, look at thumbnails, get inspired. You need custom thumbnails, if you haven't a custom thumbnail you need to get one, you need eye catching titles, not click-bate, just good titles.

           Those are my five top points on how to start a YouTube channel. Try, it and give it time, you'll love it and you'll get the hang of it. Anything specific such as how to upload a video, make a custom thumbnail, and so on you can find by searching on Google, but this is how to mentally start a YouTube channel, because I know it can be really nerve racking.

         YouTube has played a major part in my life since probably mid-2014. I remember somehow rocking up on Rebecca Ellie's channel and she became one of my first ever favorite Youtubers along side Bianca, at the time they both had probably around 4k subscribers and I remember I used to stalk them on a daily basis.
         In one of Rebecca's videos I remember her mentioning Zoella as one of her favorite YouTubers so I decided to google her and started off watching one of her Primark Hauls and then somehow I ended up on her vlog channel and then Playlist live with the British Gang, Troye, Tyler, Joey Graceffa, Miranda Sings and so one until I just got addicted. All I did back then was either school or swimming pool, YouTube, eat, YouTube, eat, sleep, YouTube and so on.
         I remember being a time when I was obsessed with Jack and Finn and I would watch their videos on repeat. Fun fact: I've watched their Rickshaw Run videos about three times and I'm not even guilty.
         During the end of 2014 I decided to upload my first ever video to YouTube being the Furry Friend Tag with Laila (which is still currently on my channel), I did actually film a haul and some kind of Halloween video before then but I never built up the courage to upload either of those. After uploading my first ever video with Laila I remember being getting really nice comments from my Intenet Friends and an amazing feedback and I never really worried about my "school friends" or "real life people" as my mum likes to call them and what they would say if they saw it. (Two years later and my brother is the only person who has seen / found my videos and I truly think it is only because he lives with me.)
         Since then I never really uploaded until October 2015 and I remember I pre-filmed about 7 videos for the whole week I was away in Portugal and I loved it, ever since I haven't given up although I do lack inspiration sometimes and struggle producing content, but every time I look and see that over 1000 let alone 100 people have seen potential and subscribed to my channel I feel so happy and so proud of myself in my own little way.
         I know I don't say it enough but I am so thankful to every single one of you who make me have a smile on my face everyday and support me through thick and thin. Thanks to YouTube I have met some amazing people who will hopefully forever be in my life, and as cringy as it may sound, thanks to YouTube I am now happy again. In 2014 I was going through a really rough time and knowing I could just switch off life and fall back on YouTube to make me laugh and smile really helped me out. Believe it or not, YouTube is an amazing platform and it has helped so many people and I just hope it continues this way for a long long time.
         To end of, here is a list of my most watched YouTubers at the moment (embrace yourself, there are quite a few, also, I have linked their main channels, but I'm loving the vlogs more):

• Zoe Sugg.
• Joe Sugg.
• Alfie Deyes. 
• Marcus Butler.
• Caspar Lee.
• The Saccone Jolys. 
• The Michalacks.
• OKBaby. 
• Hobbie Stuart.
• Shani Grimmond.
• Adam Waithe.
• Emily Canham.
• Jake Boys. 
• Sam King.
• Mark Ferris. 
• Hannah Renee. 
• Gabriella Lindley. 
• Jack Maynard. 
• Daily Bumps.
• Saffron Barker.
• Jake Mitchell.
• Acacia & Jairus.

          Every single time I talk about 'hair care' I somehow fit Nelly products in to the subject and I don't know how I have grown to love them so much. I remember the first time I purchased the product after having my hair chopped off at the beginning of the year (this sounds like a romantic comedy or something), but it did actually happen. Once I got my hair cut I went out on the hunt for hair products that would work great with my hair and create the finish look I wanted, and Nelly was the one.


          I think the straightening shampoo and hair mask will forever be my two faves although these are no longer available in most shops (sadly). These left my hair feeling nourished and rich in shine and still made my hair look healthy and straight which is one thing that most straightening shampoos don't actually do.



          To be completely honest I am not as happy with Nelly's new collection as I was with the previous. Maybe its just the retailers I know and buy from don't have the complete collection, I don't know as I haven't yet researched as much as I should.




          With that said, I do still have a couple of favorites out of their new collection, these being the normal  shampoo, the ultra repair shampoo and the hydra shine hair mask that contains apple extracts (it smells amazing!!).


          Now that I have bored you 'Nellyless' I do have one other product I have been loving and this is the volumising dry hair shampoo from Batiste. I love how this product seams to last me forever although I use it every day regardless, and obviously it leaves my hair non greasy and volumised as you would expect from a volumising dry hair shampoo.

          And they are my top hair care favorites. I know I hardly mentioned any for a year worth of favorites, but these are the absolute favorites as I have used them non stop and they are my number one recommendations!

Have you checked out the video I uploaded to my channel yesterday? If not here's the link!

          This is a notebook filled with ramblings and scribblings from last year.


          This is a handmade bracelet given to me a year ago.


          And this is a picture I took whilst I was on holiday a couple of weeks ago.
          All of these things have one thing in common, and that is that they are all memories. 





          This pare of cute "jelly" shoes.


          This pair of old trousers.


          Even a song by Ed Sheeran can take you back to a time and a place.
          My biggest issue is that I live to much in the past. I look at all these possessions whenever I am down or upset and I think how happy I was, and I forget that in the future there will be more memories to be had, ones that are probably more happy and positive than the previous ones. That being sad, sometimes your memories can haunt you, and sometimes I can be looking through old pictures and things and I'm almost haunted by how things were, and in that case you almost want to just forget and want to not think about it.
          So memories are a tricky thing, you either love them in such way you even want to try and relive them, or you just hate a memory and you want nothing more than to just move on and forget a memory.
          When you think about it, everything is just a memory. A minute goes by, and then an hour and then a day and then that's in the past and that's a memory. Sometimes it is hard to not look back at the past and not feel some kind of sadness, but it is important to remember that everything we have been through defines us in some way, good or bad it has made us the person we are today.
          Don't let the past haunt you, let it guide you and help you in the future. Learn from your mistakes so you don't do them again. And the thing about this blog is that it is just going to be another memory in your head, but I hope it is a good thing and kind of a positive one.
          Anyway, that is just what I've been thinking of today. Leave a comment telling me what you think about memories and how you think you should move on from the past, and as usual if you like the blog please go ahead and share it, and I will hopefully see you guys soon. Bye bye Xx

          Hi guys! How is everything?
          Today, I wanted to sit here and talk to you about something that has been on my mind a lot lately, and that is the idea of living in the now.
          So I guess a lot of you like me, often worry about the future and how everything will plan out and after reading this book called The Power of Now and after really thinking about it, I guess its just a rethink of how I live everyday life. So the moment I am living in now and the moment your living in now, the past and the future and really things. The past is a previous present and the future is an out-coming present. All we really have is the moment we are living in right now and I guess its just important to capsulize on that. And I guess I am talking about YOLO and the fact that you do only live once, but it has just come more apparent to me, that the clock is ticking, life is counting down and it is important to grab every moment as it comes. Over the past couple of weeks I've heard about a lot of people just dying unexpectedly and just a huge amount of thing happening in the world and that just made me think.
          There's always a divider of whether you should follow your heart, or follow your brain, and I suppose I shouldn't be encouraging this, but if something makes sense to you, but doesn't make sense to anyone else, I think you should just go and do it. I mean, if you want to go on a murder spree, don't do that because that's crazy but follow your heart, live in the moment and capsulize on whats going on now because eventually all of this is going to be in the past. Think of things that will be important in the future but don't become obsessed with them, just be young and reckless, make irrational and stupid decisions and just do what feels right now because before you know it the future will be here and the past will be in the past and you'll just regret it if you don't make the most of the time you've got now.
          Your here on the planet to go and enjoy happiness so please just go and find it, whoever you are and wherever you are, please just go and find yourself. Live the moment and seize the day.
          I hope you enjoyed this post. Leave a comment down below telling me how you live your life, do you live your life? How do you think things?
         Anyway, I hope you guys are having the times of your lives, I hope you are lucking forward to the weather and the summer and I hope you are all going to let loose and enjoy yourselves, and on that note, I will be catching you guys soon. Byeeeeee! Xx

- What are you naming your guinea pigs? 
To be honest, I still don't even know, so if you have any cute ideas, please please please help me out!

- Are you doing Vlogmas?
Well this is a bit in advance isn't it? But yes, I probably will do vlogmas this time, yes.

- Favorite song at the moment?
Right right now, I am listening to Sugar by Maroon 5 I am obsessed, but I also love the Mcbusted songs (all of them to be precise), and Maroon 5's other song Maps, is also great.

- What was your favorite TV show as a child?
I used to completely love 100% Tracy Beaker (I have watched ever single episode, even the Tracy Beaker Returns), Arthur, Pingu, the Tweenies, the berenstain bears, my parents are aliens, Mary-Kate and Ashley, Memrie the vampire, and I'm not quite sure of any others right now. 

- If you could choose, who would be with you in the CBB house?
I would pick: Zoe Sugg (and any other Youtuber), Peter Andre, Dougie Poynter (or any other McBusted singer), Ellie Goulding, Aston Merrygold, Joe Swash, Alan Carr and Keith Lemon (for the LOL's) and I can't think of anyone else. 

- If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?
I would travel to LA, Florida, Paris, Australia, Germany, Italy, all over England and Ireland, and I can't think of any more countries. 

- Would you rather not have a Starbucks for 6 months or have to baby sit an anoying girl for 6 months?
Deffinetly not have a Starbucks for 6 months because here where I live in Spain you can't get them anyway, so it would not be a difficult task for me anyway.

- In the future where do you see yourself moving to?
I won't say move, but I would love to travel, and maybe spend some time in London or Brighton or just somewhere in England.

- What are your goals for 2015? 
Firstly, I would love to travel more, even if it is only around Spain or around my city area, but it would be a great start, and secondly, to be happy with myself, and also to get fit (or fitter).

-Who are your favorite YouTubers at the moment?
My favorite youtubers at the moment are Zoe Sugg, Alfie Deyes, The Saccone Joly's, the Michalaks, Joe Sugg, Caspar Lee, Oli White, Louise, Louis Cole (aka FunForLouis) and I don't know, basically all the British Youtubers.

- If you were to have any Youtuber as a sister, brother, mum and dad, who would they be?
Well Anna and Jonathan would just have to be my parents, so Eduardo and Emilia would technically be my brother and sister, but apart from them, FunForLouis would be a great brother, and Zoe would have to be my sister. 

- You get stuck in a lift for two days, which two people and two things would you take with you?
I would take Zoe and Alfie, just because I could, and they would make me laugh! And I would take my camera or phone to take selfies, and some water would probably be good.

- If you had to choose from the Kardashian's, who's bum, who's boobs, who's boyfriend, who's hair and who's face would you want?
Okay, this is a good question, I would want Kim's bum and boobs, Kourtney's boyfriend, Khloe's hair and either Kendall or Kim's face.

- What nationality are you?
I'm English, but I have been brought up in Spain since I was six. 

- If you could have any animal as a pet, what would it be? 
This is a hard one because I love nearly every animal, I think I'd have an anteater or a baby gorila, but I'd be scared of it when it was big so that wouldn't be a good idea.

- Marry, kiss and be friends with: Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson and Zayn Malik.
I would marry Zayn (obviously), kiss Harry and be friends with Louis.

- If you could be given any present in the world what would it be?
I would just really like a puppy, or several of them, but  I've already got to many dogs so that isn't going to happen.

- If you could marry anyone in the world who would it be?
This is probably the least expected person, but Peter Andre, because I've always had a masive obsession with him, and he is just such a nice person, and so caring and such a good dad, I LOVE HIMMMMM.

-If you could marry any other Youtuber who would it be? 
It would have to be Jack Harries from JacksGap, just because I can't break up Zalfie or Narcus can I?

Firstly, I want to say thank you to all of you who have stayed by me and followed me although I've failed to upload trillions of videos I've promised, and here I am going to tell you the reasons on why they didn't make it to the big internet world and I really hope you'll understand and be there for me although I'm not as good as my expectations at the things I love doing. 
So, for making a YouTube video, there are some fundamental instructions that you need to take in mind and for me personally, they aren't easy. First, I need to pick the right time, a time when my brother (or any other member of my family) aren't going to barge in and interrupt me every ten minutes, and a time that you can't hear GTA playing in the room next door and lots of teenage boys laughing and joking along. Another fact that I highly take in mind is lighting, you need either a decent amount of natural day light (which I don't get in my bedroom, due to the fact there is a massive tree right in front of my window), or a nice pair of fluorescent lights that they sell at a camera shop (which I haven't got the money for at the moment), and one of the other worries that I have, coming to the time of filming a video, or attempting to is balancing boxes on top of books, on top of more boxes and on a chair (that happens to be a desk chair, that spins) and then trying to balance your camera on top, and straighten it out to what looks like an even angle, and then sitting down and struggling to make sure if you should add another book or take one away. To finish it off, there is the editing, once I have filmed, or atempted to film a video, I sit back the next day and open it in MovieMaker to atempt to edit it, and then it starts, I start cutting away, and cutting away, the lighting starts changing, my mum keeps on shouting at a dog in the background, I keep cringing at myself until I get to the part of the video when I start introducing products or clothes, and then I have to turn it off, I can't deal with so much cringiness. Watching Zoella's videos isn't good for me, it makes my expectations be so high up, but then I watch other videos, like Bianca's who doesn't use lighting, or a camera and that brings me down yet again, she's beautiful, she doesn't edit ANYTHING throughout all her video.
So as a summary of everything I just wrote above and the real meaning of this post, once I start filming a video, I just end up rubbing it off, but this time I'm not, I am going to film an outdoors video, in full sunny daylight, I am going to laugh at myself editing it and I am going to upload it. So you heard it, or read it here first, I AM REALLY SORRY FOR WHAT MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL MIGHT TURN INTO but it needs to happen, if it doesn't happen now, it never will, I will never start uploading, and it will always just be the one Ellie and Laila video. 
Thank you again, for reading and just being there, and hopefully I will see you soon with another post about my video. 
For those of you who might want to follow my so interesting YouTube, here's the link. Until next time, E. xx